1. Someone trying to kill us. We escape the house and leave. Walking down a moderately busy divided road. Maybe driving. We realize we lost Jason somewhere along the way. We turn back. As we are headed back, a car pulls in a driveway near us. A man gets out with a gun. We race away. I think in a car now. Get back the house and someone is there with Jason. They hold a gun to me and a gun to him. I'm screaming "NO NO NO NO NO!" and "I'm so sorry Jason!" and "You'll see your Bubba real soon". Then I wake up.
2. Dream repeats several times after I wake up and go back to sleep. Someone is killing people. And it's pretty instant. I remember hearing someone walk thru something wet - like wet carpet. Then they died. Or they touched a wall or counter or some object. And they died. I decided we have to leave. We try to leave and walk out. It's like it's dusk or just before. I look over our shoulder and I see feet and legs of a body collapsed. I realize the shoes are Grace's. I want to scream but I still have to get Jason safe. And I wake up.
3. Feb 15. I dream about Grace staying home because of her ankle (which was actually happening). But Tony is here. His friends come over. I start out dreaming about my house being messy. (Simone is really coming over and I'm stressed about the house). I remember teasing him. He's kind of aloof, being "cool" with his friends. I go to brush my teeth and I think "this is the last day I get to see him." Then I correct myself "this is the last day I talk to him. yesterday was the last day I saw him". I found it odd that I was aware of the date, even if I had the month wrong in the dream. (I last saw Tony for real on March 14. I last talked with him on March 15). I remember feeling very stressed, that I didn't know how to change it so he came home. I was trying to put toothpaste on my toothbrush, but kept missing. I had toothpaste all over the side of my toothbrush. I was trying not to cry. Then I woke up.
4. Dream is really vague. We were outside between destinations or buildings. I don't remember the purpose. We weren't camping. But going to different meetings. A space shuttle was low overhead and crashed. I kept trying to get to Steve to see it. But he just didn't - he would look and not see it. I tried calling 911, but no one actually answered. Then we are sitting down, like an outdoor cafe maybe. Also in line to order. Tony was there. He was very stressed out. He had turned a tablet in to the school when he quit his job. But there was still a pornographic picture on it, that he said someone else (Grace friend John, and others) put on it. He said he told them when he turned it in, or maybe when it happened. I don't remember. But he got a call to come into Friendswood tomorrow for a very special meeting and he was worried it had something to do with the tablet. I was scared for him. Worried about him being arrested. (in real life, Grace's friend John has a history, according to Grace, of watching porn. And in real life, Tony has a warrant because he died before he could complete a traffic court - despite sending in copies of his death certificate. I had gotten a letter about warrant roundups. I'm guessing my dream combined the 2). I work up with my heart racing and very very tense.
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(Not a dream but posted in my phone's notepad on march 10, 2017)
Every time I think of Tony's date of death - march 16 - it brings me to the scripture John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son".
I have often wondered what pain God felt, how difficult it was as a Father, to observe His Son, taking on all the sufferings of the world.
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